The blog of Paul Wady
|Posted by Paul Wady on November 9, 2014 at 8:00 AM||comments (0)|
This weekend was going to be fun. On Saturday night I was meant to be co presenting my friend Jude Cowan Montague's World News Vision Oratoria (3), in St Johns church in Bethnal Green. It was a fun script and really enjoyed doing a run through with Jude a few weeks ago. The day after my wife and I were meant to be on the train to the West Country, for my aunties birthday do (in a train carriage attached to a pub).
But sadly we both have a cold. Throbbing heads. Running noses. Funny ideas.
Actually the ideas have not been that bonkers this time? I'm curiously focused for a period of illness. Usually I lose my reason a little as a precursor to the illness hitting. The night before, things slip a little. A journey across town becomes monstrous? I take the longest route I can find. I get intense negative ideas, which are not necessary. Stuff like that? However, this time it was just a light affair. A night of running nose, bunged up nostrils and off to have a good coughing fit in the living room around 5 in the morning?
My hair has a habit of standing on end in the mornings to the point that Elizabeth usually calls me Tufty, which is appropriate. Her hair is always good no matter what happens? Really. She looks great messed up, tousled or anything really? There is nothing more lovely than her face in the mornings, having had a good sleep, all warm and red and flushed and kinda diluted capilliaries all over her, you know?
Anyhow, we are now getting into position to watch the weekly episode of Grimm, which we adore. Elizabeth reckons we should always embrace the achetype of Morecombe and Wise, sharing a bed on the show. They loved each other too, but you would never think it?
|Posted by Paul Wady on October 19, 2014 at 5:15 AM||comments (0)|
Over the years since I parted from the political autistic people, and their self advocacy groups, it has become apparent from speaking constantly with other autistics that really, there are no valid politics of autism.
Constantly? Well yes. Working for Nas you get to know and spend time with the calibre of people on the spectrum who can make it that far? To the Nas's daily table as it where. It became apparent just how real the whole thing ever was in the first place?
In the minds of many in the UK, Aspies need support. They need understanding. They need training to behave and relate in NT ways. They need money. Jobs. Relationships on their terms. Surely this all sounds reasonable?
Well, no actually. Because there is this constant, underlying idea that once given the means, people with autism will use them to be okay?
In fact, its just like anyone anywhere in the world, neurodiverse or not? Some people are smarter than others. That's life. Smarter in lots of different ways. Capable and incapable. I cannot juggle. I've tried and had training. Never could. Point is that many of us could never, ever change enough to be who and what we want to be in life? It is how we are made.
Really cruel stuff, eh? No wonder the USA is so obsessed with healing? With curing. With making the square peg round. Assuming you get the metaphor?
I dont knw if anyone ever bothers to read these blogs, but one day I thought they may be 'discovered'. Then you the reader, would find out what actually happened as far as I could see? That the attempts to advocate as well as self advocate, ended up coming to this? That in the real world of local government as well as global, in the private realm of the single individual, on the street and in larger society? I'm afraid it all came down to the single persons capacity to do things.
Understanding is all very well but when someone is intractable and won't modify their behaviour, or in any way consider others....well? Most people with autism reading this will understand my point in theory. But can you and I do it in practice? WHAT DO WE REALLY KNOW AND UNDERSTAND ABOUT WHAT I HAVE WRITTEN SO FAR?
Having spent a lot of time in a buddhist movement, you realise in the end that people are people? That you can have all these wonderful ideas about evolution and change and BECOMING SOMETHING YOU ARE CURRENTLY NOT in order to achieve your goals, ambition and raw survival etc.... But there is a rejection of who and what you are right now? See? Your present reality.
What is the answer? Well, the point of this piece is that the very question and its frame of reference is a bit dubious? If you are on the spectrum in this country, just hope you have money around you that supports you. Hope that it does not run out and that people support you well. There is only so fast that anyone can run? Only so much that someone can do before they are overwhelmed. Parents the world over are being 'overclocked' to deal with their autistic family members. Aspies are deprived of what they feel they need and what they think they do as well?
This is not necessarily a scenario that will change. So evolve your perspective and change your expectations? Become someone who is dedicated to more cold blooded and crude survival. Do not dream of things you cannot have and be. Get real and if that hurts you then it will. Simple as that.
I have often, in my early life, faced such scenarios without knowing why. Now I know, and I see that really there were no alternatives but for me to go through what I did. I guess now I am lucky compared to many, but that's only relative.
Good luck. x
|Posted by Paul Wady on July 12, 2014 at 4:10 AM||comments (0)|
Among many there seems to be an belief that when you eliminate the traits (or symptoms) of autism, you have a neurotypical. The goal of 'curing' does not appear to be upgrading an aspie or making them able to completely relate as a non autistic. It is to eliminate their status as an autistic person?
Who agrees with me that when you have someone who looks, sounds and act like a neurotypical, they nonetheless may still be an aspie. No matter how much they feel like an NT, and have everyone believing there is 'nothing wrong with them', our innate nature may still be there?
High functioners in long term relationships who successfully bring up kids? Aspies relating to each other? Growing social groups of people who are supposed to be uniquely alienated from each other and, well, anyone else including their own families? Aspies whom their own parents cannot relate to, doing that?
Autism is a human nature. its like curing yourself of being normal.
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Yeah, having autism just 'is'.
10 July at 21:28 · Unlike · 2
Totally Agree. Its like dying your hair blonde and tell people you are a natural blonde. Not that there is a blonde joke with NTs LOL
10 July at 21:29 · Unlike · 2
Monique Blakemore 'mainstream programmed' children are being taught to not identify with themselves. and it is sad.
10 July at 21:37 · Unlike · 3
You have put that across so well Paul! Couldn't agree more that lots of autistic people have to mask lots and most people then don't get who they are - very sad.
10 July at 22:26 · Unlike · 2
Also agree. But this is what behaviourlists believe. we are nothing more than we appear to be...and so many people agree with that crap
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A really exceptional actor can be king Lear one minute on stage, and then 10 minutes later they are just person x, having a drink and takeaway dinner down the road.
It was interesting really, with my illness recently, I certainly felt less myself beca...See More
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Autism is very very VERY deep within who I am as a person, my stims haven't really changed since ever I can remember, as far back as 4/5 years old. Tbh, I am surprised my diagnoses took as long as it did.
But if people don't know what to look for, then they are likely to not see it, even when it is right in front of them.
|Posted by Paul Wady on July 8, 2014 at 1:35 AM||comments (0)|
Back in 1988 I finally gave up on being an actor. Within a few years, it felt very very good.
In 2013 I went to the Edinburgh fringe to consolidate the working relationship I had created with Elise. We had spent 10 months making comedy films collectively called MonoMania. Great. I decided I only wanted to do 15 days of the festival, because I had become suspicious during our 'rehearsals' (three films you can see on my YouTube channel) and thought it best not to do an entire 3 weeks. Elise indicated she would be fine to carry on alone. Everything would be fine.
Yes. I recall the sunny disposition. The constant cheery 'oh that is all right'. Now you see how I had no idea who and what she was?
Once in the city, I spent the entire festival being told how things between us where. What was going on. Everything was aggressively defined to me daily. There was no mutual between us. There was just what Elise said was the case about our show.
The so-called show was a sham. I reckon now all Elise worried about was her reputation on the internet, and the show was a scam she pulled off to kid people online she was something she clearly was not.
What went wrong? A friend of mine recently commented that the rehearsal films were among the best work we did? If so, any mutual chemistry and fun vanished when we actually performed. Also the show had no reference to anything else I saw at the festival. I had no had anything to do with the medium in that way for a very long time. I was watching 3 comedy shows a day there. The standard appeared to be explosive laughs ever 10 seconds? We were lucky to get that every minute. Elise would not write a script with me. She cleary did not want to work with me.
So my concept of historical comedy, of Edgar Allan Poe being funny, never worked. In fact it was awful. Wtihout the two characters conspiring and interacting onstage, without that spark of fun, it was dire. I was dire. I can admit that.
Elise posted on Facebook afterwards, DEAD FAMOUS WAS A GREAT SHOW.
But ultimately it got stranger. Because Elise was just one of a small collection of people I met who, far more pleasant to live with and meet I might add, seemed to be in the same boat? A club defined by not taking any notice of critics? Of not having any visibly successful career in acting? Of not having been to a major drama school or having any substantial career that has connected them to others? This last bit is significant. Theatre is notoriously social and clicky. People network to survive. You come to be known to others and are selected for things on this basis to a far greater extent than anyone would like to admit.
One thing I was upto in my early years as an undiagnosed autistic, was surviving and having fun pursuing an acting career in the North of England. I was lucky to enter a newsagents, buy something and thank the vendor without looking terrified. Yet somehow I was known as being good at what I did. I got to East 15, although that was partially due to them taking on rather more people than they needed that year. Or was it? Who knows.
I have no pretentions and claims. I'm the man in this video, and that is all I want to be:
I am very proud of this film and push it upon the world now. Instead of some showreel thing, showing acting or comedy ability, I would rather be this man. Very much. Because I spent far more time in my life pursuing Buddhism than theatre and it shows now.
I am not an actor. I could have applied for membership of Equity union last year. I could not bring myself to do it. Meanwhile this year something very odd is going to happen, since Elise has a new show and it is being publicised by her. It is on the Camden Fringe and god knows what she thinks she is doing?
Again as with Dead Famous, this concept of what it is to perform Fringe Theatre emerges. I was drawn into it and thought we could make the format we had in our films work. Was anyone interested? No, I did not think so. I wanted to bring the characters to life, then after Edinburgh start live performances on the basis of the live working relationship we had created? Then you went on to create half hour webisodes in which the characters interacted. Simple.
If you look at what Elise is producing now on her YouTube, you have it all. This is all a very very long way from professional theatre as I understand it. In fact one reason I am writing this blog entry is so that anyone who decides to research my involvement with Elise, finds it.
I tried to tell her? I tried to help? In return she blocked anything I said to her publically and dedefined everything I said. So the people who know her, never got to know what I thought at all? Instead, as is usual with her, you get her opinions on everything. Reality as defined by one person.
It is not a sign of good mental health to spend all day exhausted, tired and wiped out. A performer who shared our venue and is now a friend of mine, commented 'She looks lost?'. I remember Elises' face during our shows. The dead eyes full of mournfulness. The mouth pouting in an 'o' shape, always open as if in shock. Her skin, pale. Not eating properly because as she tells you, she cannot afford it. The woman was 43 in 2013 and I had no idea until afterwards.
Appart from a performance in the Montague Arms this year, I've not done anything at all. We moved home & I've started making films in and for my work. I guess that something real became more important than something made up for...what purpose? What end? Where's the gain in all this? The perpetual trying and pushing and attempting to get somewhere creatively for a living? I only did the MonoMania project to see if it would lead anywhere? To develop my abilities? Well, look what I found out?
I'd love to take some negative responsibility. But how? Elise was in such a state It kind of eclipsed anything I was doing wrong. Besides, what on earth does it take to blow a simple thing like our show? It was no big deal. Just a bit of fun with guests?
Now if you will excuse me, I've got things to do. Currently films for work. That damned book. Re pointing brickwork. Returning ladders and putting together storage boxes. Real things. My wife is lying in and the cat is on my lap. My Dharma practice will always need addressing.
Theatre? I really don't think I am cut out for it. Much better to mow the lawn.
|Posted by Paul Wady on May 25, 2014 at 6:55 PM||comments (0)|
When I was 22 I could actually relate to where Elliot Roger was coming from. The infantile self obsessive ego. The blindness to anyone but himself in a really intimate way. Sexual frustration because I could not relate to women to any real depth of mutuality. (I can now admit). I never slept with anyone until I was 25. I did not have a relationship with another Aspie until I was 30. I do not consider sex with anyone but a bipolar or an Aspie appropriate, and anyway if Elizabeth died I could not do it with anyone else. That's why it would be a good job to die before her.
His insane energy, directed utterly inwards. His pain, accumulating away because he was all alone inside his head. The need to use superiority and superciliousness as COPING. But he'd see it as his being better than normal people.
He says in his film he does not understand why all these girls don't want to have sex with him? Because all he wanted was sex. Could this 22 year old relate to anyone to any depth? Did he see himself in anyone else? How could he get physically close? Besides, he may have been terrified of it but not known it. His lack of self awareness coming from forever living in a neurotypical world, not the one people like me are trying to create now?
Aspies need our own realm. We are a clearly delineated sub set of humanity and its not appropriate to pretend we are and should see our selves as neurotypical.
Who the hell gave him semi automatic pistols? I've handled guns like that and they looked and felt just like the toy ones I had as a child. He still was, and some idiots paid for those things for him.
Did he see prostitutes? Why not? He was special wasn't he? He was pure, divine and aristocracy. He had the family and the money to back the belief up. Coping and coping with being an Aspie. Did he have anyone in his life who was the same thing as him?
Does this help anything? I don't know. Just trying to make sense of it. The really important and terrible question is, did Elliot Roger enjoy murdering strangers? He stabbed three of them. What did he get out of it? Was there anything good for him in all of this or was he simply a child, gone into shock at his own actions and not aware of it?
Who bullied him? When? At what point did he detach from everything? Maybe some brains just aren't built to take the alienation? What is sanity? A relative value? A convention? A construct? Aren't we all?
|Posted by Paul Wady on April 12, 2014 at 5:00 PM||comments (0)|
Neil Coombs is going to start work on Guerilla Aspies in May. He's designed a wonderful cover concept picture from my idea of a Che Guevara image of me on the cover. Gawd 'elp me.
All is good. Thank fully no communication or sense of any sort from the by now, infamous Elise Harris. Her most recent video blog shows a rabbit and a cat interacting in a back lane in Wales, filmed on an Android camera phone. I think that says it all really?
I seem to have become the in-house film maker for the National Autistic Society in their head office.
I've made friends with Miss Roberts, Cos Chapman and the Rude Mechanicals. Nice people.
Wife good, Life good. Need to get back to the gym. Need to put a fence up. Got everything including a sledgehammer, which made me feel like Thor going home on the tube with it. Wonderful how no one comments on a man walking around with such a thing in the evenings in London. I did not get one single "DON'T BE SO INSECURE?" at all?
There will be a Guerilla Aspies Workshop cabaret, when I've thought of something I think works, workshopped it, tested it out, had it criticised and generally produced something that is not improvised in front of Edinburgh audiences with a maniac every night.
I seem to be at a bit of a fork-in-the-road?
Thank you. x
|Posted by Paul Wady on November 18, 2013 at 7:00 AM||comments (0)|
Right now, I feel between events. This year there were a lot of small performances with my friends and of course, the Edinburgh Festival Experience. I want to develop a viable public show. Be it to push the book (which I'm waiting for someone with a book - line to read to see if they want to publish it. Else I will just pay for copies to be printed and push that. Not many but a private run to start it all off. Cause trouble, get sectioned etc?) or perform a show.
Development on The followers of the way of Yaah Yaah, and anything else, has been arrested by our waiting to move home, my heading towards being 50 at nearly Xmas time when we should be moving...and so on. I need collaborators as they help to raise the energy. I'm raring to go but it is very difficult to find people? Especially when you don't operate from templates or work in genre's. It's all innovation with me so you don't know where you are going to end up? I've got some fine pals but I don't want to encumber them when they have their own projects - one of which I'm looking forwards to working on soon.
I will be glad to play Edinburgh again and forever, but that takes booking venues and I do not intend to do that without some sort of coherent and actually proven to work show. Which means I may miss the boat there.
So that's it. There is this sensation of awaiting the ball to start rolling so you feel your energies and actions actually mean something and will go somewhere? I've never been someone who could do stand up, despite everyone telling me I do it all the time. I just dont know how to collate material yet, no matter how many of these folks I've seen. There are courses and maybe I should consider these in order to focus? Why not? Again its the lack of template business.
I have been performing since I was 18 years of age and have been in front of a huge number of audiences between 1982-1888. God knows how many plays in Liverpool alone? Maybe 20? Certainly over 200 actual performances in front of people. I know I have a great deal of stagecraft I can use which is worth people bothering with, I just don't know how to focus it at this point.
You see, the idea of the Dead Famous Edinburgh show.
was that we would conspire to make it work each night. The opposite happened. Instead of having fun, Elise seemed to revert to some sort of monologue template. I AM A STAND UP COMEDIAN. I AM DOING STAND UP COMEDY. There was no flexibility. No imagination at all. The format died and looked pointless. A stream of bum jokes in the end?
It was meant to work because we would both develop the fascination of the audience in these two characters being there in Edinburgh. Instead it just looked awful? It was not stand up either. In fact I seem to have succeeded in innovating because Dead Famous will surely remain, something outside of any ordinary frame of reference. Sadly, not an effective one too.
Okay. So I've got a collection of pictures to publish at A3 size one day when I'm rich.... Music to write, comedy to think I can do??? That bloody book to push and a Bullying Film to complete. It exists but its a private link on YouTube for comments. I need feedback to work from? I've got a nice cheap old Apple laptop with a mind of its own that suddenly dies on me, which I write stories on now. I'm trying to get into the random habit of roving around with the thing, spilling hundreds of words into it. I remain in this utopian existence, happily married with a wife and a moggie, and our obsessive habit of watching HBO shows. The action is all on the telly now, they say?
So If you want to see it, just let me know through the site?
|Posted by Paul Wady on October 20, 2013 at 6:00 PM||comments (0)|
I would like to post the text of the film I'm making right now, with my friend Fred Price.
(Subject to my changes at the time of filming, flashes of inspiration etc).
THE BULLYING FILM THE JOY OF CASUAL SADISM – HOW AND WHY TO HURT PEOPLE.
By Paul Wady
ANYONE CAN GIVE PAIN TO OTHERS. NOT EVERYONE CAN TAKE IT.
What is bullying? – the use of the term appropriated by the autistic community.
• What kinds of people do this? Anyone. Of any age, anywhere in the world. Bulling is a universal experience, and has existed as long as humans have felt the need to assert themselves on others when they did not pragmatically need to. So already bullying is definable as an unnecessary and avoidable action. Although as we shall see, that does not mean it has no merit to the people who bully?
• Fun from domination? The action of dominating, controlling and manipulating people can generate a powerful buzz and euphoria in the bully. Juvenile behaviour is not restricted to school children. People of all ages are capable of appreciating and perpetrating this phenomena, even pensioners. (Perspectives like this are all part of a mature, ‘higher teaching’ perspective on the overall phenomena of bullying. Like many other things in my film, they go to make up the greater, awful whole).
• Power games. Rape as a form of control, power and revenge. It was my best friend Catherine who explained to me that the act of rape was where people sought the most intimate and primal, animal power over another. So men used rape to assert themselves and conquer women for their own pleasures. In the Polytechnic I went to, I reckon I encountered women trying to take this phenomena out on me.
• Personal development. How bullying people can help you develop life skills. In the school I grew up in, there was a visible ethos of personal development through picking fights with people weaker than yourself. Fighting people you knew you could win. This can lead to someone developing a certain confidence. When you have had the actual experience of getting the better of someone else, it gives you a euphoric experience and the social skills experience to do this again. You can then quite clearly be seen by others to be someone who can relate successfully in that way.
You become someone to fear if challenged in certain ways – or to be taken seriously in some social environments. Such was the world of money, business, street selling or any activity where there is always a potential threat or danger from other people. These are clearly not the kinds of social world and scenario that people with autism usually enter or get involved with. Someone like myself however, has always sought out situations beyond my handling and in some cases, survival.
As someone who went to a drama school, or my rather awful experiences of school and the Polytechnic I studied at, I subjected myself to years of varying forms of damaging abuse from people. But I am someone who heals very well and very quickly, and felt I had no choice at the time but to do these things. Besides, what did I do wrong? Why should I not be in these places no matter how hostile they were?
• Social skills for the real world. Why you need the capacity to do this kind of thing to be able to deal with adult life, to an extent that many will not acknowledge. As I have acknowledged above, in order to complete a degree course or finish school, I had to go through considerable and prolonged pain. For many of us, this is intolerable. We simply don’t have the kind of capacity that I personally have to take daily pain. (This is not a boast. I wish I’d never been in these situations believe me). The phrase ‘fight fire with fire’ is often the way people expect you to respond. Bullying as a form of animal communication. Hurting people to see if they hurt you back, in which case you recognise them as ‘okay’ since they ‘know the score’. They can relate your way, in your cruel style. So they are cool, acceptable….normal people?
• Fear generates fear, hurt makes people hurt. How abusers can be motivated by personally being abused. The circle of abuse can be infinite, a baton of deep pain that people are traumatized enough to want to continue by giving it to others. There is of course a feeling and experience that many people know, that this action can actually purge you of the offence and pain that was caused you. So some may bully in order to heal themselves, and some exclusively due to others doing it to them.
Our school bully got in contact over 30 years later. By then he had become a heroic autism parent, raising two NT daughters and one son who was on the spectrum A stepson whose mother had abandoned him as well. He explained to me that when he got him, his father was a Liverpool policeman. He faced a whole different scale and arena of bullying himself.
He was forgivable because he never used psychological violence, only physical. In the face of the bitching and horrendous treatment I received from many others, this for me gives him a redemption. I’ve never found physical violence to be a harmful event in the long term because I’ve never been harmed that badly. But some are. Very much so.
• Peer Pressure. How being part of a group can lead to bullying individuals. Welcome to the world of mindless behaviour – wanting to be a certain kind of person and belong to a specific social group through hurting others IN ORDER THAT YOUR GROUP SEE AND APPRECIATE YOUR ACTIONS. The shared euphoria and amusement of taunting the vulnerable. Group membership and belonging. Power games and the acknowledgement that in the real world – that is all there is to life. Knowing the score, that this is what it is to be ‘real’. It is all there I’m afraid. It has a lot to do with perspective. With how people come together because they can all appreciate certain experiences that some cannot. They all see things the same way. They feel the same way.
• Often people in the world of autism don’t have the maturity or experience to comprehend the experience of abusers. They don’t really know about why people hurt others. They do not see the motives or gains. People with autism cannot understand the often complex, gut-level issues that cause people to attack and hurt others for pleasure. This is one reason why they get abused, and how it generates joy for the hurters. Their ignorance is part of the fun.
• The world of autism contains a lack of acknowledgement of how the real world often works. Parents too can be part of this. People who are often bullied daily by their own children, to the point of it causing them mental health issues. The need to be able to assert yourself to make money? To survive in rough environments such as lower working class societies and environments? To daily negotiate people who are in charge of situations that are aggressive, competitive and demanding (banking work, finance and business, marketing, competitive industries, nursing, you name it that involves a large daily turnover of the general public).
HOW TO HURT PEOPLE.
Ways of doing it.
• Gaining trust and abusing it for fun. •
Asserting greater strength – showing someone there is nothing they can do.
• The innate deep-rooted ecstasy of power. Being stronger than others is beautiful.
• Gaining confidence and power over other people through learning to bully.
• Doing the above as subtly as possible. The art of intimate intimidation and manipulation.
• SADISM. The psycho –sexual experience of deriving pleasure from hurting others.
• Masochism – anti bullying? An unknown experience. Where the bullied enjoy the pain inflicted upon them. Sometimes people can be both sadistic and masochistic, a term known as ‘sadomasochism’ which is also used to derive the overall phenomenon of sexuality involving physically and mentally hurting oneself and others.
• The knowing over the naïve. Where bullying is merely the objective assertion of greater understanding of the neurotypical ‘real’ world?
• Trying to get the victim to relate. Where bullying is in fact an attempt to make someone equal.
OKAY DOKAY. COMMENTS LADIES N' GENTS? REMEMBER IT WILL BE A LOT MORE SENSIBILISED AND ACCESSIBLE IN THE FILM.
|Posted by Paul Wady on August 22, 2013 at 4:50 AM||comments (0)|
WELL.... Here I am on the Thursday, having returned Sunday morning. I think I am somewhat rested by now.
As vistors to my website will have gathered, I ended up on bad terms with Elise Harris. It did not work out. We did not relate, gel, or have a good time in front of the audience. Indeed, some nights were described by people as painful, with a bad atmosphere in the venue. We clashed instead of blended.
We were getting on fine before we went, but despite my asking Elise would not let me script anything. Nor was there a coherent running order. Instead she took the lead and expected me work around what she improvised night after night. Any record on YouTube you may find is entirely material she made up during our time together, with further embellishments. There were no previews.
There was also no imput from others. Next time I play Edinburgh, I will be bringing a proper show. Workshopped, ripped to pieces and commented upon. I will never do anything so self-centered to an audience again.
The reviews were terrible. One was a small paragraph - a perfect description. The bigger one was practically hate crime, and as each day passes I lose more and more ability to argue with it. The term narcissism applied to both of us, makes sense now. A vehicle for a pair of ego's? Hmmm.
Well, I was one of them. Anyhow, back now from what was otherwise a briliant experience. Up all night talking to the fine crew Elise and I shared a flat with. Danny, the mainman and organizer of accommodation and his own venue. Hayden, of the Elders of Zion show, a very talented man whom I dont think I'm in a position to give advice to now! I'm listening to him. The remarkable Clare, with her own show in a yurt in the Three Sisters venue. Two nights in a row she arrived for her late night show to find someone had vomited in there. Dear god...
Clare and I got an idea of the ground we called The Followers of YaYa. A workshop introduction of the YaYa movement. A spiritual discipline and community.... We had a great time fleshing out the characters involved in a cult in denial. I want to continue that one very much.
I have seen several shows a day. learned a great deal I think, on what is needed to have a successful comedy experience. I saw shows that did not work where they could have (great start and premise) and shows that were polished and slick and did the job well. I saw ordinary basic stand up, shows with video projectors and audience participation and themes.
I am still keen on character comedy. if the characters relate to the audience and are actually consistently delivering laughs. I am also keen to do something that is just plain one - man - facing - an - audience. No technology. Next year I will play the Free Fringe again, and do a 3 week run. All being well.
My friend Ria Lina delivered a show called Thpethial, which is apparently due to my telling her she was on the spectrum. I made pals with Jan McArthur, who brought her amazing Echolalia show to the Fringe from Wellington, New Zealand. Dance, clowning and theatre all combined to betray all the behavours I have tried to hide from the world all these years. It was a very intimate expression of our kind, which many may not understand. Sarah Hendrickx (with an x at the end, yes) the autism trainer and author was playing in my venue, as was Kate Fox with her thought provoking show about not having children. Good for you Kate.
A show called Red Bastard was the talk of the Fringe. An American who had to have something interesting happen at least every ten seconds of his act. I think that maxim is worth bearing in mind?
So apart from my particular act, a great time indeed. I also got to join a second show and perform as Poe...
One day on the Royal Mile, jammed with people as usual, I met a group of young Oxford university undergrads who were staging Midnight at the Rue Morgue - the madness of Edgar Allan Poe. It was a promenade show in a nightculb. I asked if I could come as Edgar and see their show. They thought that would be 'awesome'. So I did.
Towards the end of tracking around the different performances of Telltale heart, Usher and Annabel Lee, Alice in the cast pointed a bloody finger at me and said YOU ARE EDGAR ALLAN POE! We got a picture together and I heard her saying it was the most amazing thing that had ever happened to her. Thank you Alice.
Thereafter we all kept in touch online, and they let me in for free anytime I wanted. So I did another four shows with them, two on the same nights as Dead Famous. First night Eddy just lurked and stared. Second one he got quite energetic and moved around a lot, ending up on the side of the small stage pinned down by a small light that had collapsed from behind a curtain whilst hysterically doing The Raven along with the cast. Other nights he got smashed on his laudnum/run mix in his hip flask (bought the day of the show) and became scared, confused, intense and manic. He always ended the evening collapsed upon the floor, gibbering to himself twice and one time in a foetal position. An ordinary night out in Baltimore in those days you know?
Thank you so much to Tara, Alex, Alice, Clare, Raffe and Brian. What a great experience to be part of. It really made my fringe to end with you all instead of my show, which I abandoned on a tuesday night, came back to wednesday then gave up on thursday through to saturday. I left sunday morning.
Phew! What a pace. What a frantic mad thing to do day and night. I will return indeed.
|Posted by Paul Wady on December 14, 2012 at 5:10 PM||comments (0)|
So it was finally, that I more or less ran for it.
Advocacy. Self advocacy. The championing of one's own kind. The brave and noble attempt to make sense of it all, from my own perspective.
It does not work like that with autism. As you will gather from this site, it has been build over a timeline of events. Finally I've been forced to conceed. The saying - WHEN YOU'VE MET ONE PERSON WITH AUTISM, YOU'VE MET ONE PERSON ALONE WITH IT - has a dark depth for me.
I honestly have been forced back into the neurotypical world. Secure, stable people. Relationships that you can trust. People who relate, and with whom you have this sense of continuity. The Aspies tended ultimately to keep their own council over time. There was this disturbing sense that any history you may have with others, was exclusively theirs to consider or disregard. They were quite ruthless in their capacity to drop you, to see you their own ways.
A small number of us have banded and bonded together. That is very good, but a lot more have fallen from me. People seem to form social groups as appropriate to their particular degrees of empathy and executive function. I seem to be someone who is most comfortable with the jobs/relationships/own home and car crew.
Sounds like snobbery I know, but ultimately I don't think its appropriate to define myself by disability no matter to what extent I have it. I seem to have too much together for it to be appropriate to define myself to people as mentally disabled. So no more telling people I have autism. Keep that to yourself.
My take on autism of course, means I will always ultimately tell people the truth. Is this a bad thing? Well, it is socially inappropriate in some cases. London is not the place to go around being open with everyone. I'm living in the wrong city to be fully myself all the time. But it is home, and we are happy here.
We are also most facilitated here. Which is important at this phase of both my wife's life and myself. Things to do and things we can use. I hope to be in the British Library tomorrow for example. Doing some Poe work.
So there you have my Neurodiversity upto this point. A happy christmas period everyone, and keep on smiling. x
CHRISTMAS GREETINGS FROM THE MODEL AIRCRAFT MUSEUM, ON THE STEPS THAT LEAD TO STRANGE, ART-DECO VAULTS OF LOST AND SECRET OBJECTS AND PEOPLE.
|Posted by Paul Wady on August 18, 2012 at 10:05 AM||comments (2)|
WHAT SHOULD AN AUTISM RIGHTS MOVEMENT BE LIKE?
I am going to write, off the top of my head, what I think a self-advocacy organisation for the autistic would be like. No research. Just the most basic and apparent things. Okay, here goes.
• ACCOUNTABLE TO ALL MEMBERS, AND BASICALLY REPRESENTING THE WISHES AND WILL OF THE MEMBERSHIP ALONE.
COMPOSED OF INDIVIDUALS WITH PROFESSIONAL AND EXPERT ABILITIES TO EMPOWER THE MOST DISABLED OF AUTISTIC PEOPLE TO BE ABLE TO REPRESENT THEMSELVES.
• NOT A DICTATORSHIP, AUTOCRATICALLY DOMINATED BY CERTAIN INDIVIDUALS.
• TOTALLY ACCOUNTABLE IN ITS LEADERSHIP AND POLICIES. POSTING MINUTES OF ALL MEETINGS AND ABLE TO EXPLAIN EVERYTHING IT DOES, WITHOUT ANY SECRECY.
• ITS LEADERSHIP WOULD BE DEMOCRATICALLY ELECTED.
• ITS LEADERSHIP WOULD BE TOTALLY TRANSPARENT TO ITS MEMBERSHIP, KEEPING REGULAR BLOGS AND INFORMING THE MEMBERS OF THEIR WEEKLY ACTIVITIES.
• NO SECRECY OR SNEAKING AROUND BEHIND EVERYONES BACKS.
• NOT RUN BY PEOPLE WHO TELL LIES.
• NOT HAVING CO CHAIRS WHO DON’T KNOW THEY ARE IN ANY WAY INVOLVED. (Lying someone is your co chair when they are not. Speaking for them and making statements on their behalf. Lying).
• NOT USING THE ORGANISATIONS FUNDS ANY WAY THE ‘LEADERS’ WANT, REGARDLESS OF THE MEMBERSHIP OR THOSE WHO FUNDED YOU. OR THE TREASURER.
Now, all this would seem pretty simple, eh? Especially the bit about not lying. For what is a properly run organisation except a mere conduit for its people?
Certainly not a scam, set up to empower one man? Good heavens no. You would not have committee members cherry picked to do nothing except be registered to the world as on your committee, in order to make it look like there was some sort of democracy going on?
You would then deal with the issue of representing the autistic. Many people with the condition have a lack of executive function. So you have people joining who cannot think or act in an entirely coherent manner, neurotypically speaking. Surely this means you have vulnerable people doing what the leadership says, trusting that its all for the good as this is a self advocacy organisation for them, because otherwise they would have difficulty in doing anything for their organisation. Let alone being able to influence its thinking and actions for the collective good of their kind?
Therefore, surely autistic members would require appropriate support to be involved. The Autism Rights Movement would naturally see it as their duty to provide this, having the expertise and maturity to do that. How else could they be truly inclusive, and not some executively functioning aristocracy?
Such is the nature of autistic people. It is not like other minorities. It is a mental disability.
What you would need to avoid is where such vulnerable people are without any voice, because they cannot speak for themselves. So they join something that uses them for its own ends, instead of finding out what they want and working with that.
The leadership, those people ‘at the top’ who do most things for the membership, would of course not be autocrats. The committee/chair structure would exist to make sure that individuals did not seize power and dominate things. It is an unfortunate characteristic of autistic people that we have this tendency to autocracy. Lacking perspective of themselves let alone others, autistics tend towards self centeredness.
People cannot see how they are wrong. Having ideas, they cannot help themselves to assert their own beliefs. They cannot help but demand they are listened to, and in some cases, completely obeyed. It is something many of us just cannot help.
I can introduce you to one National Autistic society Trustee, who communicates quite normally by virtually shouting at you. Just as you have managed to say your piece, it is obliterated by his apparently, hysterical yelling. His opinion is all.
He means no malice. He cannot help it. It is just his way. A fine contribution he makes too. This is an example of how an autistic self advocacy organisation is challenged. For to represent all autistic people, you have to be able to relate to what all autistic people want.
Now this, aha, this is the issue. For some of us are in Broadmoor. Some of us are severely antisocial. Some of us go around lying and doing only what we want, regardless of anyone else. Some of us had PhD’s, several grandchildren and an academic career and a nice house! Some of us are long term unemployed alcoholics. Some severely, obviously and comically delusional. Yet all of us are autistic. So surely a self advocacy organisation would be an entity of profound maturity? Its leaders, elected democratically of course, would be people of rare insight and capacity to see both themselves as autistic, and the rest of the world that was not.
For me, it is this rare maturity that characterises what is required in the leadership of an autism self advocacy movement. People who relate to their own lack of relating. People of a rare mental health, insight and perspective. People who are capable of putting aside their own wants and desires, and representing their membership.
In short, people you can trust. Reliable, accountable, by relative standards mature, sane adults who are on the autistic spectrum. Simple as that.
What policies and initiatives would such a group engage in? Why, that which was most relevant to its membership. The Autism Act is a fine example. Naturally the leadership would collate its member’s opinions, survey the given state of services in this country for people with autism and their families, and then synthesize a response based on that.
Such work would naturally be published upon their website blog. As indeed, would the regular opinions and thinking of the organisation. This being so autistics all over the world could engage, debate, and thus mature the organisation. Again, accountability as the way forward. It is my cherished dream, that one day such an organisation will exist.
Sadly, for now, as so many of us know but for one reason or another will not say,
it is still a dream.
P.W. August 2012.
(I have authored a huge and hilarous document about my history of involvement with the attempts at autism rights movements here in the UK. Sadly at the moment I cannot release it or discuss its contents. But believe me, full of emails and references to people who will bear me out, it is all true and provable. Because I have no idea why I'd want to make it all up).
|Posted by Paul Wady on July 9, 2012 at 7:15 PM||comments (0)|
It has been four months. Long time in my life.
I've set up an Edgar Allan Poe site, and the energies have been going into that. We should be producing a show in the next few months.
As for neurodiversity, that is going to appear again at the end of the year. I am reluctant to have anything to do with theatre and performing, despite my returning to it. Yet Poe has crossed the line of the audience and taken me onto the stage as someone else. I want to explore the medium to say all the things I've wanted to for ages.
Hence, Aktion T4.
I am writing and researching a piece to say many things at once. Why bully. What happens to the vulnerable? Why hurt anyone? Why not?
My research so far has shown that the holocaust itself, was initiated by an action that targeted people with my condition. Specifically the mentally disabled. Simple as that. So how? Why? What justifications?
Having grown up in a two-thirds Jewish school, I am a gentile in a position to know something about this. Objective information was available and we were suffciently distanced in history to be objective about it. But still, one way or another, the trauma and horror where still there in peoples families and lives. Somewhere, around, faintly.
I may go back to making the music. I am more interested in collaboration now. Also the Terminal Beach suite of music is being made available for download by a free record label. Very exciting. I discuss my autism in the pdf notes you can get with them.
As ever, if you have any contributions to submit I will be glad to see them. I'm one of these autistics who wants to learn and conceed to others. Not all of us can...
|Posted by Paul Wady on March 2, 2012 at 6:30 PM||comments (0)|
I previously posted that I have completely and totally disassociated myself from the so-called Autistic Rights Movements here in the UK.
I then ceased to contribute to my site. I put energy in my Poe project and returned to my old Buddhist movement, which is a great relief to do despite not having any desire to be ordained into it any more. I have to explain now, that my belief that any kind of autism self-advocacy groups or individuals must have non-autistic people involved with them, is absolute. I will not and cannot believe such groups are safe, or in any way represent their members.
I further believe such groups have potential dangers. Notably the autocratic behaviour of their organizers and founders.
You must remember that autism is a mental disability. Autistic people have certain natures. I have observed certain effects in such groups. Ultimately, key individuals come to dominate them absolutely, and any chances of democracy are lost. Besides, when you have a membership with a lack of executive function in their brains, such people are not likely to do much arguing or stand up for themselves if the people they subscribe to as group organizers do not represent them they way they want.
Assuming of course, they understand what these leaders are doing in the first place?
The sudden and substantial trouble I had with the existing groups was not just unexpected, but ultimately led to lies being told. This was quite a shock. Both my wife and myself, have now made the firm decision to leave this world behind us. We are very much in the Neurotypical, non-autistic realm again now. Relatively a place of stability and coherency. a different frame of refence too.
The entire issue of autism advocacy, of our kind fighting for our rights, has become questionable. Exactly what good such groups can do, in the light of the history of the UK ones, must be considered. I believe that the existing groups are prototypes which will demonstrate the failings and strengths of this kind of endeavour. I believe that the individuals totalitarianly ruling them, do not understand that they are writing the texbook on just how such groups can go.
An aspie friend of ours from Israel has commented that over there, exactly the same dynamics manifest in the 'political aspies'. Same behaviour. Same absolute need for total control, allowing no argument and only wanting things their way.
My involvement with such groups was merely to facilitate them. I had no desire to command or lead. I profess no political acumen. Politics have never been my strongpoint. No, I just wanted to help them, to be secretary and henchman. Seems that even trying to do that can lead to their developing paranoia. Trust me, paranoia.
I am very glad to be disassociated with something that consumed huge amounts of personal energy, whilst giving little back. Due to the nature of our kind, you are not likely to get much membership support or appreciation anyway. Also, the paradoxical nature of trying to build up organizaions where the members do nothing, expect everything to be done for them and often don't understand what they organization is trying to do, is as I said at the beginning, worrying.
Such groups always did have a very small number of proactive members. It was as if they collected an army of permanently 'sleeping partners' and then represented them any way they wanted, without any fear of these people arguing. Is this a fair representation? You tell me.
The Model Aircraft Museum continues to represent my learning curve in the world of autism. It has been over 8 years since I entered it with a surprise diagnosis of the condition. Now, I feel drawn to leave the sub culture all together. I am not the only one of us with a diagnosis who feels this. So a few of us have founded an anti-sub culture, sub culture. Great!
The site will of course remain on. But if you find it has not been enriched very much, or blog entries such as this, then you know why. I have tried to sacrifice my time and even my money to the cause of my kind. But in the end, I find it questionable whether you can relate to autistic people the way that sub cultures such as gay or transgender do. I do not believe it works that way with a mental disability.
|Posted by Paul Wady on February 10, 2012 at 8:45 AM||comments (0)|
The first big Edgar Allan Poe and friends show was a success, with amazing feedback. Frog Morris hosted it in the basement of the Constitution pub in Camden, London. Right on the canal. A fine and friendly place it is too.
I Poefied the basement and Frog made a coffin lid...now that was challenging. Really took me to the edge of my psyche having that in the space. A red shroud over the top of it and some candles, and it was Virginia Poe's sepulchre. (I will tell you all one thing. Judging from the size of it, she was a big girl). Joanne McCormack was truly supernatural as the White Lady, a Singing Ghost who gave us Virginia's poem to Poe.
Ever with thee I wish to roam —
Dearest my life is thine.
Give me a cottage for my home
And a rich old cypress vine,
Removed from the world with its sin and care
And the tattling of many tongues.
Love alone shall guide us when we are there —
Love shall heal my weakened lungs;
And Oh, the tranquil hours we'll spend,
Never wishing that others may see!
Perfect ease we'll enjoy, without thinking to lend
Ourselves to the world and its glee —
Ever peaceful and blissful we'll be
Lovely, is it not? Joe of the Edgar Allan Pogues gave us a song and some music on his guitar, Elise Harris gave us Lennore and Frog himself performed The Raven, together with a co conspirator in the audience, with a raven. Daniel Lehan gave us word art on the theme of Poe. Great. Images on Photobucket are on the Poe page on this site.
So what of tomorrow? Well, lots more to be sure. A properly scripted Poe world experience for a start. I am taking a few weeks away from it to spiritually recharge from the intense melancholy and bereavement of Poe's world, after which we will get cracking again.
I COULD NOT LOVE,
EXCEPT THAT DEATH,
WAS MINGLING HIS WITH BEAUTIES BREATH...
|Posted by Paul Wady on December 7, 2011 at 3:30 PM||comments (0)|
Well, recent events have meant that I have had to completely give up on any involvement in Autism advocacy, or the self - advocacy movement.
I have been advised to retire from any attempts to represent our kind, or help others to do so which was mainly what I have been upto this year, and go back to the world of Neurotypical friends and activities.
I don't want to go into any depth here but suffice to say, I guess it was only a matter of time before I engaged with people on the spectrum whose mental health issues were such, that you would end up in trouble with them. For being me and trying to help, basically.
I have returned to my Dharma practices too, which is a great relief. I look forward to a retreat next year. Phew.
It is a great pity it has come to this, but I have tried my best to make a positive contribution and now it is time to restrict things to the museum and the shows. I have started a performance project anyhow, and have a bigger show than the two so far, in London in January. Edgar Allan Poe...
That will cheer everyone up. Have to be careful as Poe is handling toxic substances psychologically, to produce a positive response through realizing what he was trying to express. Pathos, loss, beauty gone and love dead. At least two Morrissey songs thrown in, to seriously explain everything. No really. That is how it works for me. Morrissey - Poe. One is my cypher for the other.
Take it easy. x
|Posted by Paul Wady on August 30, 2011 at 7:15 AM||comments (0)|
I have come to believe that autistic self-advocacy groups, should not exist without non autistic people being involved with them.
I think that there needs to be one or more, trained, aware or how shall I put it? Orientated Non-autistics keeping an eye on things. This may seem patronising but I have a good reason for this belief.
I am on the edge of having nothing to do with this field at all. Such are recent events, I don't know if it is possible to have a safe, effective group run by and for people with the condition. Such is the nature of a collection of people who get together on the basis of having autism.
I intendt to petition very strongly about this in the future. I believe that such groups have nothing to worry about. if all goes well and makes sense to everyone, what is the problem?
|Posted by Paul Wady on April 20, 2011 at 5:45 PM||comments (0)|
Hayfever and a cold, I think. Or mild flu. Hmm. Weather finally the exact right termperature. All good.
I now have a 10x80 HD camera, and have recorded 4 interviews for my documentary/attempt to make sense/manifesto of autism identity project.
Yes, all these things at once. I spent a week with my friend, the remarkable mastermind of it all, the brains of the operation, in his marvellous home in....Hmm. Give that away another day. But yes, I've done darshan. Sat at the feet of the master. Got some transcribing to do.
A few more find aspies to film, the people who have been at the heart of the London Autistic Rights Movement so far. So many others around the UK to listen to, to find and explore. Having finished the book, I think the 2nd one may well be an exploration of the so-called self-advocacy groups.
Best example and seemingly most effective is the ASAN, the Autistic Self-Advocacy network. My friend asks me, what the heck does self-advocacy mean? is the term a misnomer? A big word for me I reply. So already, terms and exactitudes. What are we high-functioners doing?
So I've been looking to the ASAN lately, and need to do more reading of their stuff.
More writing to come. I've got others reading my stuff to rewrite it now. Hopefully post something in the Autism Manifesto's section. Watch out for the Autism Show on the Excel in June this year. Surprise for everyone in that you know, all being well.
The four songs from the fourth collection, remain undeveloped. There is another I need to put up with its own video. But for now I'm concentrating on the documentary/critique of pure autistic identity.
I saw Wendy Lawson the other week, speaking publically. She remembered me from Autscape 2006. Great to see her.
Interviewed these neurodiverse characters too. Luminaries in the great cause...
Here is a good one of the Wife. Good night. x
|Posted by Paul Wady on February 18, 2011 at 8:50 PM||comments (0)|
I find myself up, having come in late, and considering why I started my odyssey of self-disclosure. Why go on about having a mental disability in a world like ours? Why give away weakness when everyones got to get by? Is there money in such honesty?
There are many reasons for this site, as I mention on the homepage. One that is hard to disclose online is the life I have led that has brought me to this point. Some nasty stuff back there, I tell you. Indeed, a few incidents and things I appeared not to know about or understand. The buried alive effect. You know what's going on but behave as if you don't, because you cannot handle people.
I was thinking about one so-called friend I used to have. I met him in the East 15 drama school. I lived with him too. He kind of looked after me for a while, ultimately for his own bizarre reasons. Unfortunately I did not know about narcissists then. Although someone we both knew, diagnosed egomania in him. Lets just say, he was in a committed, long-term relationship with someone he loved very much. Trouble was, it was himself.
What the experience taught me was that I really did have something going on in myself I could not understand - and neither could anyone else. This was in my mid twenties. I got the diagnosis at 41. The relief was huge. By then I'd been through 10 years of buddhist retreats and I knew exactly what to do. Explore this new understanding as compassionately and positively as possible, and pass on the perspective to do as much good as I could. Simple as that.
In my youth, I was like Alan Partridge who knew full well what an idiot he looked to people, but kept doing the Alan Partridge thing. So here, a grown man admits to being a fool, and everything else I have headed this blog with.
This is not the kind of thing people who do not hate themselves or are self-destructive write, or who do not consider themselves guilty of terrible things. Well, on the scale I have related and the people I have known, this is the language I would use. These bombastic and searing terms are the ones I would call on.
For I believe now I'm someone who always gets up again and comes back for more. I am made like that. I am good at recovery and healing in life, and getting back in the ring. Strength? Well, I'd call it a good job considering what the real world has appeared to be to me. Simple as that.
The point here is that to be on the spectrum is to be alienated. To be someone who does things that make perfect sense to them, but not others. I recall the so called friend went through a phase of making as big a fool of me as he could. It was childish, infantile. He thought he was 'smart and clever', his buzzphrase. Oh deary me. I just thought that the more one is all those things, the less you would need to behave the way he did. It became apparent at the time there was something very imperial and godlike about his self image. I tried to reason with the man over a series of years, but I could not handle him. No faculty.
I stopped wanting to be any kind of actor after I saw the back of him. Good job too, the social skills involved were a bit beyond me. But you know? We had some good times. He taught me a lot. There was a cost. Everything was bought and paid for.
|Posted by Paul Wady on February 4, 2011 at 6:53 PM||comments (0)|
I MET HER ONLINE VIA FACEBOOK. SHE WAS RUNNING SOME SORT OF MERCURY-IS-SATAN GROUP AND I DECIDED TO ASK HER A FEW QUESTIONS. IN THE END, SHE COULD ONLY DEFEND HERSELF BY MAKING ME OUT TO BE BRAIN-DAMAGED THAT I WAS NOT TAKEN IN BY THE LINKS AND DOCUMENTS AND EVEN DOWNLOADABLE BOOKS SHE SENT ME.
BOGUS SCIENCE. DOGMATIC, ABSOLUTE STATEMENTS SUCH AS AUTISM IS NOT PRESENT IN CHILDREN UNTIL THEY ARE 2, AND EVEN THEN MERCURY INTRODUCES IT. AMAZINGLY IGNORANT, NARROW-MINDED WOMAN WHO THOUGH SHE WAS THE OPPOSITE. RECKONS SHE TESTIFIES AT HEARINGS. SCARY.
Paul Wady February 1 at 8:27am
Can I please ask you a question?
What if Autism is merely the coalescence of a hereditary condition, which is so prevalent in humanity to a small extent that it is quite a normal (defect) in many blood lines all over the world?
You can verify this by asking anyone with it whom they inherited it from, or what side of the family the Neurodiversity manifests in whatever obvious or subtle form. When you have Autism you get a kinda 'gaydar' about people.
What also, if you discover that all your chelations have done is boost the functionality of people with Autism, to enable them to learn. This means they can simulate and pretend to be Neurotypical better, which will complement their already existing capacities to 'be normal people' in responses, empathy and thoughts?
Surely this will be a good thing? The idea being that actually, although mercury is innocent, you've found a way to upgrade Autistics functionality - the only 'cure' that exists?
So everyones happy? Parents think they have normal children. Autistics can relate, act and grow to be normal-functioning people and get jobs and be independent and...simple as that?
Is this not a good scenario for a hereditary condition?
Also, could you explain why it is that I have met so many people of all levels of functionality, from non-verbal biters to a woman who is a professor of renewable resources in Brighton University, and like myself we all share the shame race-traits? Have you actually met many high-functioning Autistics like my Wife and myself? Neither of us suffer any kind of depression and have spent our lives helping others with our great energies, so what was wrong with us in the worlds eyes??? But really, we ended up with diagnosis for the condition.
Doreen Piazza Randal February 1 at 9:05am Report
I do not believe that this is hereditary per say. Our blood lines have been infected and passed on to the generations causing genetic mutations. Our genes would be ok if not for these toxic insults. Truth told, we all seem to be somewhere on the spectrum to one degree or another. Most diseases have common causes but given different names where by a drug can be prescribed to treat the symptoms that end up compounding the problem.
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Paul Wady February 1 at 9:24am
Erm...I am sorry, but our debate appears to have been interrupted by what seems to be a commercial break? You just gave me the link to a list of products for sale?
Are you some sort of saleswoman for these people? Also, getting back to what I was saying, am I right that if Autism is the result of what you are saying, well, that's life. It is in the gene-pools of humanity. Autistics are here.
Am I correct in assuming that when you say OUR GENES WOULD BE OKAY IF NOT FOR THESE TOXIC INSULTS, you are saying that there is a default normal state of all humans? All? That Autism is a perversion of the normal?
Doubtless also, you can cite peerless examples of such genetic racial purity?
Then, you say TRUTH BE TOLD, WE ALL SEEM TO BE SOMEWHERE ON THE SPECTRUM...
I am sorry, but this all seems very confused. Also, when the term Biomedical Disorder is used, can't you say that about anything to do with the body? Including hereditary brain-forms that are relatively disfunctional by relative societal standards? Surely you are not saying that Autism is merely an immune system problem, like having bad bowels? It is how your brain is made is it not?
Can I finally ask. Do you know a lot of adults on the Autistic spectrum? Have you had a great deal of experience of people of all levels of functionality? I have. 5 years and counting of research, reading and meeting new Autistics weekly in my job and social life. Face to face.
Doreen Piazza Randal February 1 at 10:10am Report
I am not a sales person. Mercury does cause mitochondrial damage and oxidative stress as professor Haley testified to the FDA last December. Vaccines contain aluminum, formaldehyde, components of anti-freeze, live viruses grown in the entrails of animals such as monkeys, sheep, cows and other live tissue.
Yes my son and grandson had tremors and siezures after the vaccines and a learning disability thereafter. I have lists of parents who were effected by vaccines...more than 200
The government has paid out over 2 billion in death and damage claims, but they still have a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, and I guees they believe that this artificial herd immunity is worth the risk. The only real herd immunity is natural immunity.
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Paul Wady February 1 at 10:15am
Please do. email@example.com.
Are you sure your grandson was not already on the spectrum and the vaccine merely lowered his functionality? Is it conceivable that people who are Neurodiverse have this inbuilt vulnerability to vaccines that does that?
If so, where does the whole compensation movement stand?
I honestly believe that if you look at what is happening with funding for Autism services here in Britain, an attempt to get money in the way you are attempting is the only way you could get it!
Please make of that what you will. Thank you.
Paul Wady February 1 at 10:18am
On the good Doctors website he writes-
hen, as now, the media were controlled by the vaccine manufacturers and the government, who stood to make huge money from the sale of these spurious
vaccines."... Tim O'Shea, D.C.
What is he saying?
Doreen Piazza Randal February 1 at 9:09pm Report
He is saying that the vaccine manufacturers and the government control what the mainstream media tells us. Money kickbacks? one can only guess. The tide is starting to turn though because Katie Couric with CBS understands the issue and is in our corner.
Doreen Piazza Randal February 1 at 9:19pm Report
I have one friend whose grandson died on the pediatricians table after a vaccine and another friend whose son stopped talking and walking after 30 vaccines. There are currently too many in the schedule, and no warnings about the risks. Now one in 150 become autistic. Who is more vulnerable? Those who become so overloaded that the body cannot excrete the toxins fast enough. Everyone is an individual and reacts differently. But, because some are able to survive a toxic insult does not make it safe! it will only appear later when the virus is triggered as cancer or something else which cannot be traced directly back to the vaccine. That is the beauty of it for those who push vaccines.
So in the Poling case mitochondrial damage was proven and 1.5 was awarded initially, and now the case is sealed. If you call it autism you have no case, if you call it mitochondrial damage then you may have a case. Mitochondrial damage is brain damage. Autism is brain damage. A rose by any other name! You see?
Doreen Piazza Randal February 2 at 6:57am Report
Catch this recent video:
Dr. Wakefield Demands Retraction for Hoax Run Against Proven Vaccine / Autism Link
(37 Minutes) http://www.infowars.com/ http://www.prisonplanet.tv/ In this important Sunday edition, British surgeon and researcher Dr. Andrew Wakefield joins Alex in studio for an in-depth interview dealing with the fraud and hoax that was run against his research to help children by the media and
Paul Wady February 2 at 9:26am
I can see that you do not answer some of my questions, and instead concentrate on specific issues which you relate back to me in your own particular way.
Autism is a hereditary state of brain-design. We on the spectrum relate as a race and a kind. The more children - it is alway children - are facilitated to behave in so-called normal ways, without physical pain (I'm taking about a disorder of the brain here) then the more they are recovered and cured.
There are now two camps. Those like yourself who don't understand who and what Autistic people are, and the vaccine-conspiracy-brain-damage people. You tipify a narrow-minded cult who are fanatically trying to stop children being protected against illness and death from diseases. You think that is not what you are doing.
Meanwhile, Wakefield is a red-herring. He is credited with starting this madness and the our-children-died & suffered-due-to-vaccines camp, believe he is being persecuted and is thus their martyr.
Actually, it is really simple. Children have always had allergic reactions to vaccines. Not many by the way. The ratio is, as you know, very small. BUT THEN ALONG CAME THE HIGHER AUTISM RATES. My point is simple - you believe that vaccines cause Autism. Same vaccines have apparently hurt and even killed kiddies. So....
I don't believe that at all. I have my own proofs against what you are saying. Normally people like yourself have a formative experience where you know a child who had a vaccine...or heard of someones child that had a vaccine...and so on.
Science cannot yet screen babies to see which will have such reactions and which will not. That is the crux of it all.
Of course children should not get ill or die. Certainly not from vaccines, you are quite right. But to project Autism on them? Lowering functionality certainly & there is the little matter of ARE YOU SURE WE ARE TALKING ABOUT PROPER ACTUAL AUTISM? Brain-damage is a different thing altogether.
Suddenly all these ordinary folks are experts on Autism, vaccines, and biomedical issues and the human brain. Really? Are you sure about Saint Andrew the Wakefield?
So there is a conspiracy? Do you know what that sounds like? It sounds paranoid. So you are not a cult-fanatic with a totally narrow-minded view on certain issues, that does not actually know any adults with Autism, or cannot and will not tolerate any way of people being other than functional, clued up, savvy, smart, clever....
Doreen Piazza Randal February 2 at 9:24pm Report
I know that babies are born with certain brain diseases, but I think they were passed on from a toxic mother. The fetus absorbs toxins from the Mother. There are many influences that play a part. I am just saying that children who are diagnosed with "Autism" have mitochondrial damage another term for brain damage. I did not know that you were pro-vaccine. I do have an e-book to send to you if you include your email address. Beyond that we can agree to disagree. I have been researching this issue for over 10 years and have come across many people who say they were diagnosed wit autism which is happening more and more. You don't see a problem then ok!
Doreen Piazza Randal February 2 at 9:26pm Report
To: Washington State Board of Health
Mailing Address: Post Office Box 47990, Olympia, WA 98504-7990
Physical Address: 101 Israel Road SE, Tumwater, WA 98501
Phone: 360/236-4110 Fax: 360/236-4088
To submit and make public record to the BOH Hearing:
Attention: Desiree Robinson - Testimony on Hearing on Requirements based on National Immunization Guidelines (WAC 246-105-040) to be heard by BOH at 1:55PM on Nov, 10, 2010.
*Toxic Overload: Assessing the Role of Mercury in Autism By Boyd E. Haley Issue 115, November/December 2002
1) Thimerosal exposure in infants and neurodevelopment disorders
Heather A. Young a, David A. Geier b, Mark R. Geier c,⁎
2) Published - Hepatitis B Vaccination & Autism
Published - Hepatitis B Vaccination & Autism 1997-2002.pdf
3) The Minamata Disaster - Mercury Poisoning
4) Video: How Mercury Causes Brain Neuron Degeneration - University of Calgary
5) Generation Rescue - The Science
6) Russell Blaylock M.D - Immunoexitotoxicity and Autism - Part 1
7) Russell Blaylock - Immunoexitotoxicity and Autism - Part 2
3) Russell Blaylock M.D. - The Truth Behind The Vaccine Cover-up
Thomas Burbacher - University of Washington - Comparison of Blood and Brain Mercury Levels in Infant Monkeys Exposed to Methylmercury or Vaccines Containing Thimerosol
9) Thimerosol - Material Safety Data Sheet:
10) Testimony by Sandra Duffy:
11) Vaccine Damage List to BOH: https://acrobat.com/?d=LQaA*3g4JS6ssY08GCcWRg
12) Safe Minds: ACIP Letter - 2006
13) Safe Minds INC1 Statement 2010
14) Safe Minds Testimony: Lyndelle Redwood
15) Sopar Tauch
16) From the Townsend Letter
February / March 2010
The Infection Deception:
Unanswered Questions about the Swine Flu Controversy (Part 1)
by Len Saputo, MD, and Byron Belitsos
17) Simpsonwood PDF file: https://acrobat.com/?d=1SzPmDuR9C2e07*K-bJs1w
18) "Bruesewitz v. Wyeth: A layperson’s abbreviated views: The 7th amendment to the Constitution of the USA, the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program (NVICP) [42 U.S.C. § 300aa-10 et seq.], and Wyeth’s absolute, nondischargeable duty to prove that its vaccine was safe"
19) See graphs here: http://www.ageofautism.com/files/denmark_vacc_vs_unvacc_results_survey.pdf
Roosendaal, 1 December 2004
The NVKP (Nederlandse Vereniging Kritisch Prikken) [in English: Dutch Association for
Conscientious Vaccination] is an independent association made up of therapists, doctors and
parents, amongst others. The NVKP’s aim is freedom of choice for parents when it comes to
vaccinating their children, based on honest, comprehensive and independent information. We
view the current ‘one size fits all’ vaccination policy with great concern. The NVKP is therefore
urging the adoption of more thorough independent research by representatives from different
PO Box 1106
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Information number: 0900 - 2020171
20) Proof that vaccines did not save us: See all Graphs
By genebean - Posted on 07 November 2009
History shows us that vaccines did NOT eradicate the diseases that plagued humanity. That is a common misconception -- in actual fact, it was better sanitation and hygiene in the cities that prevented the spread of diseases. These charts, from official sources, show us that vaccines (1) were not responsible, and are not necessary, for eliminating infectious diseases, (2) are not effective, and (3) are dangerous.
These charts are part of a document prepared by Raymond Obomsawin, PhD. You can access this document here in PDF format. The data comes from various sources including national public health agencies, encyclopedias, Vital Statistics and Historical Statistics of the US, published medical journals, UNICEF reports, and more.
The charts are grouped as follows :
FIGURE SET I : Natural Infectious Disease Declines Preceding Public Immunization Efforts (vaccines DID NOT eradicate the diseases that plagued humanity)
Figures one (1) through eleven (11) graphically illustrate that in North America, Europe, and the South Pacific, major declines in life-threatening infectious diseases occurred historically either without, or far in advance of public immunization efforts for specific diseases as listed. This provides irrefutable evidence that vaccines are not necessary for the effective elimination of a wide range of infectious diseases.
FIGURE SET II : Immunization Effectiveness (vaccines ARE NOT effective)
Figures eleven (12) through twenty-four (24) graphically illustrate that immunization is not by any means a proven and foolproof measure for protection from various infectious disease conditions. It is often inconsequential epidemiologically, and in some cases it is shown to actually worsen health-care outcomes.
FIGURE SET III : Immunization Dangers (vaccines ARE dangerous)
Figures twenty-five (25) through thirty five (35) graphically illustrate that increases in the number of governmental mandated vaccines correlates with significant increases in death rates for children under the age of five (5); and that the practice is linked to sudden infant death syndrome; various degenerative diseases, including diabetes; and appears to cause general immune system impairment in infants and children. Evidence also points to the practice of immunization as a principal factor in the recent massive increases in neurodegenerative conditions such as autism in children.
Credentials of the researcher, Raymond Obomsawin, Ph.D. :
Raymond Obomsawin has served as Director National Office of Health Development - National Indian Brotherhood (AFN); and Founding Chairman - NIB's National Commission Inquiry on Indian Health; Executive Director in the California Rural Indian Health Board; Supervisor of Native Curriculum – Government of the Yukon Territory; and Evaluation Manager - Department of Indian and Northern Affairs Canada.
His most recent post in the Canadian public service was as Senior Advisor on Cultures, Knowledge Systems, Local Ownership and Ethnicities at the Canadian International Development Agency. He is currently engaged with government funding as Senior Researcher relative to establishing a Public Sector Policy on Traditional Medicine in Canada.
A few highlights of Dr. Obomsawin’s professional experiences and achievements follow:
Co-Chaired the United Nations Environment Program - Convention on Biological Diversity (CBD) Ad Hoc Technical Expert Group on the Potential Impacts of Genetic Use Restriction Technologies (alius "Terminator Seed" technologies).
Spearheaded the first world-wide inter-sectoral review funded by a Western government on Indigenous Culture Based Knowledge Systems in Development. The study elicited the involvement of over 500 public and NGO sector bio-social development, technical and research institutions in all world regions, and entailed field mission research carried out in the Andean and upper Amazon regions of South America, as well as East Africa, South Asia, and Southeast Asia.
He has produced academically and/or professionally over eighty-five (85) articles, reports, policy documents, presentations, and publications.
Washington State Board of Health
The State Board of Health provides leadership by suggesting public health policies and actions, by regulating certain activities, and by providing a public forum
Paul Wady February 2 at 9:56pm
Do you have a plan B in all of this? What if mercury is a huge red-herring? What then? Please tell me?
Paulwady64@gmail.com for the ebook. Thank you Doreen.
Doreen Piazza Randal February 3 at 12:48am Report
The most we can do is educate the public and move towards a phase out. No everyone agrees on the best detox protocol. That sais my letter to the editor thaty was published in Seattle Post Intelligencer:
Health Freedom Advocate
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My sister sites:
Health Freedom Advocate - Anti Mercury Activist
Letter to the Herald:
After testifying in behalf of Safe Minds and World Mercury Alliance before the WA Board of Health on National Immunization Guidelines (WAC 246-105-040, I have arrived at this simple conclusion: Anyone who would protect the use of a known neuro-toxin like Mercury is either seriously misinformed, is effected by it, or has an invested interest in the product. Arguing if a poison is a poison is an argument that makes no sense, much like trying to reason with the Mad Hatter! Then, it's off with your head if you do not comply? Parents of babies who died on the pediatrician's table, or those who were harmed are then referred to a government run program for compensation in the case of death or harm, which is a contradiction in terms, isn't it? Over 2 billion has been paid out in damage claims. And what about the people who have no idea that this has been going on and were never warned about the risks? “The illegal presence of mercury in FDA-approved medicines, especially vaccines, is being defended by apparently fraudulent studies” is the key-point in a letter sent to The Department of Health and Human Services (HHS-OIG) in Washington DC on September 15. 2010.
The current US Mercury Treaty negotiations that will ease the transition towards mercury reduction and elimination makes me wonder who is really paying attention to the real issues at hand. The Insurance Commissioner's official statement is that they will continue to insure the most cost effective substance considered legal, that being mercury. Since we can no longer rely on the hippocratic oath of "do no harm", we have to rely on what we know is happening.
Thimerosal is a registered pesticide. There is no proof of it's safety, and absence of proof isn't proof of absence. No liability, too many vaccines in the schedule, and no warnings about the risks spells cover-up! We need transparency about the risks involved and free choice!
World Mercury Alliance
Source articles: http://birdfl...u666.wordpress.com/2010/09/22/scientific-%E2%80%9Cproofs%E2%80%9D-of-%E2%80%9Cno-
Vaccine Program/Office of Special Masters | US Court of Federal Claims
Paul Wady February 3 at 8:06am
CHILDREN ARE NOT BORN WITH IT, BUT ARE NORMAL UNTIL AGE 2.
I quote page 130 of The sanctity of human blood book, from the section on Autism.
L I E S .
This book is familiar to me. In my early years I saw books like it. Bagwan Shree Rashneesh. Bubba free-John. Gurjieff (all badly spelt). Best of all, UFO conspiracy books. Marxist-anarchist tracts.
What will happen is this. Mercury will indeed be eliminated from children and babies lives. It wont make any difference.
What my Wife observed about your replies to me was:
""This person would make a politician as she seems to be doing what they do. That is appearing to answer some of your question but not really addressing your points. Also she, like politicians, is ignoring some of the more crucial points you make. Probably a refusal to listen to the truth.""
You have this specific fascination with a small number of particular points. You cannot understand or see hereditary Autism.
When our kind meet each other we ask WHERE DID YOU INHERIT IT? Either a parent is visibly the same as us, or one side of the family is a bit odd somehow. Simple as that.
Your e book will incite infanticide. It is the product of science-fiction writing, something I know a lot about from my youth as well. In fact, I could write something like this myself.
When enough children die due to books like this - and well-meaning people like yourself - things will change. You won't be so able to tell anyone what you have told me. People will be against you in a way they are not now.
Freedom fighters against an oppressive regime. Thanks for the book. Very very scary stuff. If people can believe in bibles then something like this can be taken seriously, as a real thing, and what will that lead to?
My Wife used to teach A level chemistry, reading the propaganda rags of Big Pharma, New Scientist and Scientific American. She reads proper academic journals too, as she calls them. As an Aspie, she does these things properly.
A close friend of mine tests vaccines for a living, for an independent British company that works for governments as well as our own. This person used to be a committed buddhist too.
There is simply nothing. There is no conspiracy any more than a cover up or proper proof that Autism is an autoimmune disorder, or that thimerisol causes it or vaccines. Of course mercury is a toxin - thimerisol is classified as organic-mercury. Not supposed to be the same thing.
You don't seem to understand what kind of states of mind you are in. I spent 14 years in a buddhist movement and taught meditation to my own kind - Autistics -for up to 3 years. I have seen people in the state you are in many times in different places, at different times of my life.
So what happens when mercury is discounted? What when the Autism continues? What is your plan B?
Lies and paranoia I am afraid. Hysteria. FACTS! SCIENCE! It's there in the papers it must be the truth, to quote a song from the 70's.
I could send back a .pdf scan of a book called WOMEN, MEN AND ANGELS that a so-called buddhist movement had published once. It details the relative inferiority of women to men as far as pursuing enlightenment goes? Or how about Valerie Solanas's S.C.U.M. manifesto? Society for Cutting Up Men?
What you have to watch out for is the writing. It is very good. Facts, eh? Wow.
Keep it coming baby. When you know enough people on the spectrum, this kind of things sounds quite sane. I can introduce you to one Aspie who went on holiday and was chased down a beach by UFO's. Big Pharma put him on medication for that!
I bet it had mercury in it...
Paul Wady February 3 at 8:41am
AUTISM CAME OUT OF NOWHERE IN THE LAST 20 YEARS; IT CANNOT BE EXPLAINED AWAY BY CAVALIERLY DISMISSING IT AS A GENETIC CONDITION.
L I E S .
Doreen Piazza Randal February 3 at 9:28am Report
Mercury is a problem. Removing mercury from vaccines will only solve some of the problem according to Dr Russell Blaylock. That is why children are still effected by vaccines whether or not they contain mercury. The book I emailed was the 13th edition. I am now reading the 14th edition. I believe it is very well documented and very well referenced, and always kept up to date.
I do appreciate the mindfullness of Buddist thinking. The Dahli Lama visits here in Seattle from time to time.
If your friend tests vaccines, can the efficacy and safety of these vaccines be shared with us? The ingredients are man made toxoids. How can these ingredients be considered safe?
When Jenner abondoned the very first experiments with vaccines because his 21 yr old son died from them, why would the pharmaceutical companies take over and still sell them when they knew they did not work and were harmful?
My grandson screamed bloody murder with severe stomache pain with tremors in his legs where five vaccines were given all at once, not to exclude the high fever. My girlfriends son stopped talking and walking and just stared into space aftyer 30 vaccines. These are not isolated incidences. Many parents just don't put two and two together. But believe me, I can! There is a revolution going on and I believe it will the people who say no, regardless of the mandates and talk of mandatory innoculations.
You are right , Autisn cannot be dismissed as a genetic condition!
Paul Wady February 3 at 9:46am
"If your friend tests vaccines, can the efficacy and safety of these vaccines be shared with us? The ingredients are man made toxoids. How can these ingredients be considered safe?""
Erm...eh? They just are. No proof they ain't. Simple.
Are you actually reading my responses? Only now you seem to be talking to yourself.
Autism is a genetic condition. When did I say you could not see it as such? The quote was from your book. It is a lie. Autism is hereditary. Simple as that.
What you seem to be talking about above is not autism. It is allergic reactions to vaccines. Not the same thing. Are you sure these children have Autism? Are you sure you and your cult know what Autism actually is?
What is your plan B?
So...Big Pharma is in a conspiracy? Uhu.
You could go on like this all day. You seem to be ill. In fact, you are acting like some Autistic people I know. An obsession. An OCD obsession.
These literal, unimpeachable statements are pretty brutal, totally true and cannot be argued with. Right, so, you have no doubts at all then? Total certainty? 100%?
Doreen Piazza Randal February 3 at 7:57pm Report
Health Board Suspends Use of Pandemrix Vaccine | News | ERR
Estonian Public Broadcasting News in English
Paul Wady February 3 at 9:06pm
Maia Uusküla, drug safety director of the State Agency of Medicines, told ETV. According to her, there have been few reports of serious side effects. The two more serious cases have been allergy-related.
Oh. So a few people have been knocked out by it, but otherwise according to Maia, it's fine.
Er, sorry. What has this to do with Autism and vaccines?
Doreen Piazza Randal February 3 at 11:42pm Report
because they have been giving these kinds of vaccines to infants and are still recommending these kinds of toxic insults to add to our already immune compromised population.
Paul Wady February 3 at 11:59pm
Do you have any kind of expert qualifications in this field?
Who do you think you are?
Can you acknowledge an obsession on this subject?
Do you have any idea how bad things were with diseases and epidemics before vaccinations came about?
Caught smallpox recently? I wonder why not?
Are you a medical professional? Only I know people like that. They would not dare to make the assumptions you do, without a substantial amount of expert research away from a lot of Google results.
Actually I know someone who tests them for a living. I think you will find the numbers of children who are having allergic reactions are tiny. BUT ONE IS TOO MANY. Very true.
We seem to be exploring the nature of your mind more than any vaccine-mercury-autism links.
I doubt that any of these statements will mean anything to you.
Please, again I ask, anything to say about UFO's?
By they way, have you any idea just how many pharmaceutical products have come and gone? The number of antipsychotics that Autistics have had prescribed that have then been dropped and you will never get them given to anyone again! That kinda thing?
Who knows how many vaccines have come and gone? It would seem that it is not an exacting science.
When there is a screening process to determine what is safe to give children and what is not, all will be well. Until then children such as the ones you know of, will be vulnerable not only to allergic reactions to things meant to help them, but family members going mad and thinking they are Autistic and must be cured.
But by now, I think I could email you Q[PWOIET [OQWIHT and you would not notice.
I have friends begging to see these exchanges.
Happy days! Yours still alive due to having my shots,
Doreen Piazza Randal February 4 at 12:24am Report
I coordinate with professionals who fear that their position will be compromised if they go against the phamaceutical industry. No one can go after me. I am protected. I work in the research and investigations end of this issue. I work with attorneys, Doctors, Scientists, parents, children, . I am dependeded upon to come up with necessary documentation to support these contentions. That is, I have compiled absolute proof from various studies and sources. Doctor are sick and other professionals have become sick and have died. I am a humanitarian. I beleive that if you know this is happening and do nothing then you are part of the problem.
It is hard to keep up with all your comments and questions but, Here in WA there are more deaths from drug over doses than from car accidents according to a health department study.
Also, when you refere to an allergic reaction, that is incorrect. A toxin is not an allergen, therefore, you cannot have an allergic reaction to a toxic substance. This was pointed out in the FDA hearings last December by expert witnesses.
So, you must be referring to the recent UFO sighting: http://www.comcast.net/video/ufo-in-jerusalem/1778489037/Comcast/1778417420/
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Doreen Piazza Randal February 3 at 8:10pm Report
The placenta has long been thought to shield the developing baby from pollutants in the environment. The study's alarming results dispelled this as a wishful myth. Of the 287 chemicals identified in the umbilical cord blood of 10 infants, 180 were known carcinogens, 217 were toxic to the brain and nervous system, and 208 have been associated with birth defects or abnormal development in animal tests.
Learn more: http://www.naturalnews.com/031198_psychiatry_teens.html#ixzz1CvcVYxnn
Sick Brains in Teens - Is There A Root Cause?
Sick Brains in Teens - Is There A Root Cause?
Paul Wady February 3 at 9:13pm
FROM THE WHAT IS BIT OF THE NATURALNEWS SITE: The NaturalNews Network is a non-profit collection of public education websites covering topics that empower individuals to make positive changes in their health, environmental sensitivity, consumer choices and informed skepticism. The NaturalNews Network is owned and operated by Truth Publishing International, Ltd., a Taiwan corporation. It is not recognized as a 501(c)3 non-profit in the United States, but it operates without a profit incentive, and its key writer, Mike Adams, receives absolutely no payment for his time, articles or books other than reimbursement for items purchased in order to conduct product reviews.
The vast majority of our content is freely given away at no charge. We offer thousands of articles and dozens of downloadable reports and guides (like the Honest Food Guide) that are designed to educate and empower individuals, families and communities so that they may experience improved health, awareness and life fulfillment.
This is what the Naturalnews is. Anyone can post on it. Okay, lets read the article.
IT SAYS: One of these behavioral disorders, called Oppositional Defiant Disorder (ODD),(9)is said to manifest around 8 years of age. Mannerisms include: easily losing one's temper; aggressively arguing with adults and defying requests; refusing to follow rules; deliberately annoying other people; blaming others for one's own mistakes or misbehavior; and being touchy, easily annoyed or angered, resentful, spiteful, or vindictive.
Okay, so you never grew up in Liverpool then, like I did. There we call this being a Scally. A lower working-class person. Uhu. Must be the rubbish diets of fish and chips.
But truly, guns don't shoot people. And something obviously makes people shoot people. Perhaps stopping the chain of events that result in medically unhealthy and physically sick young brains is the place to start. We owe it to future generations to clearly identify the effect these combined toxic compounds are having on brains of all ages. Even more importantly, we need to heal these damaged brains and restore them back to health before the epidemic of violence gets any worse.
This is what it says at the end of the article.
So...you are not just gullible, you are ravingly paranoid about diets as well as toxins. Have you ever seen DR STRANGELOVE the film? You are just like the General who tries to start world war 3. THE COMMIES ARE PUTTING THINGS INTO OUR WATER, he tells Peter Sellers. WE MUST PRESERVE THE PURITY OF OUR BODILY ESSENCES.
Your emails are seriously starting to both frighten and really make up laugh out loud, amuse us. You seem to be quite crazy. You also think that when something has been well-written on the internet, it is totally true.
I am going to post these emails up on my website. You are brilliant!
Do you have any about UFO'S?
Cheers, Paul. x
Sick Brains in Teens - Is There A Root Cause?
Sick Brains in Teens - Is There A Root Cause?
Doreen Piazza Randal February 4 at 2:16am Report
Dr Tenny Penny who wrote this article has been on the Doctor Oz show. Dr Mercola has been on the Dr Oz show also. Mainstream Doctors are begining to understand the importance of integrative medicine.
There seems to be no sense trying to reason with you among all the proof that is out there. Of coarse you are free do do as you wish. You are not on my friends list so I see know reason to continue your asperger type ranting back and forth. One researcher I know has said that if a person is over 50% toxic you will not be abler to reach them. Mercury wants more mercury and it is the toxin itself that is a work in the brain. Though I have found this theory to be difficult to grasp, it may have some truth in it. However, I know of a man who lived in a nursing home who had 32 mercury fillings removed by a biological dentist, recovered and lived to write a book about his recovery. I guess it just depends on the individual in the end.
Doreen Piazza Randal February 4 at 9:39am Report
Here's some of what you'll find in this eye-opening report from the International Medical Council on Vaccination (www.VaccinationCouncil.org)
Vaccines: Get the Full Story - NaturalNews.com
Dr. Sherri Tenpenny, author of "Saying No to Vaccines" shares revolting details of what vaccines are made of, how they harm human health and why Big Pharma keeps pushing them on everybody.
Paul Wady February 4 at 6:44pm
It is not Autism.
What is being referred to as Autism in the above, what you are talking about, simply is not Autism.
Autism as you mean it is another thing entirely to what I am talking about. Basically, vaccines are not perfect. The science is not 100% safe. So one in so many children react.
But then along come people like you. If I were to constantly write MERCURY THIS, MERCURY THAT, MERCURY MERCURY!! That is what is known as ranting. This is what you say I am doing.
When I say I have still not seen enough dubious, unsubstantiated but wonderfully written download .pdf's and 'authoritative documents' and scientific reports you seem to be able to find, you tell me that I am brain damaged by mercury so I cannot be reasoned with.
Now, let me tell you the real truth of why I have been talking to you.
It is nothing to do with a lot of links, reports and testimonies like this one that look great and are ignored by normal medicine, your government and science in general. It is nothing to do with Autistic children. It is nothing to do with whether or not vaccines are perfect. They obviously are not.
No. It has to do with a grown, adult woman in America who would blame everything that is wrong as far as she can see, with mentally disabled people in general on MERCURY.
Meanwhile the so called Naturalnews authoritative book link above is just a list of paranoid points against the vaccine industry. I assume you have not had much contact with proper scientists. Everything you show me contains dogmatic statements of utter certaintly. Now, you could convince me actually.
No really. I have an open mind. But then you say the same things over and over again that ruin everything:
CONSPIRACY WITH BIG PHARMAEUTICAL COMPANIES TO HIDE THE TRUTH.
VACCINES CAUSE AUTISM.
MERCURY IN VACCINES CAUSES BRAIN DAMAGE AND AUTISM.
YOU MUST BE BRAIN DAMAGED IF YOU DONT BELIEVE THE WEAK PDFS I KEEP SENDING YOU.
Problem is, my Wife is an A level chemistry teacher who is currently doing a doctorate here in London. She will be getting back to you about this rubbish you keep quoting as gospel-truth. Are you sure that bombarding obviously retarded victims of mercury like us, is going to mean anything to a planet clearly saturated in heavy metals.
Also, erm, what happens when you deplete mercury in the environment and it makes no difference? What happens when chelation not only makes no difference save upgrading child functionality to pretend to be NT, but kills the odd kiddie?
Are you in any fit state to concede any of your beliefs?
Are you in any fit state to concede any of your beliefs?
Are you in any fit state to concede any of your beliefs?
Are you obsessed with things you do not entirely understand but quote and repeat to meetings as some sort of expert?
Please give us some sort of proof you know what you are talking about. Where are your credentials? Who are you to say all this? Where is your proof of proper scientific objective insight?
I think you are just someone who believes lots of internet links and the odd printed document and books like EVIDENCE OF HARM. You are not anything like the scientists you believe, are you?
Ah, but don't worry. The mercury has driven me mad...
The purpose of the Council is to counter the messages asserted by pharmaceutical companies, the government and medical agencies that vaccines are safe, effective and harmless. Our conclusions have been reached individually by each member of the Council, after thousands of hours of personal research, study and observation.
AHA, SO THE The International Medical Council on Vaccination IS JUST SOME BUNCH OF PEOPLE LIKE YOU? Another cowboy-outfit set up to fool people and force their opinions on the world.
TACTIC: We will create official structures of our own people, to counter governments and Big Pharma. We will assume an authority and the people will believe we are just the same thing and believe us!
Each year, more and more money will be diverted from helping autistic people and their families into our research!! We will stigmatise vaccinations and eventually, when enough children are not protected against disease - THERE WILL BE AN INFANT GENOCIDE!
Uhu. I see.
Paul Wady February 4 at 6:52pm
Same thing with THINK TWICE GLOBAL VACCINE INSTITUTE.
What are you? What are you involved in? What the Hell are you doing?